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12:57 am
16 February 2021
I.
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II.
02:59 am
10, March 2021
I am so sad and depressing and i don't know how to describe it out. I can't crying or screaming out loud, i hold everything inside to the point that i can't keep it in anymore. Too much unexpected things happened recently and i just can't get over with yet. I also pressured myself even though i already know that i have enough of it.
The emotion that are in this video are all real. i didn't fake it i just want to release some of my pain even though i am pretty sure no one will understand it, but at least i got to spread it out. since i keep avoid telling people about my emotion even to the person i most trusted.
I feel so painless to all the word that used to cut me. i ignore most of the negative topics, I focus on myself and telling me that i deserve better and keep on reminding that if someone doesn't treat you like the way you treat them why bother care! I deserve so much better. i give them all my time, respect and trust but they toke it for granted so why wasting time?
It's not that I'm becoming weak, it's just because i love myself more right now and i do care about myself. Don't miss the old me because she's so easy to be broken.
01:14 am
13 March 2021
III.
I get a covid vaccine this evening, my head ache so much, I never felt this kind of headache before. My body temperature is rising up too. My body is shaking while the room temperature is so warm. I wear a fluffy sweater like I'm in the cold place.I am using my iron teapot us my heater, put it on me and cover myself with blanket.
my favourite exercise
some highlights in my life
When I feel most confidence, happy and carefree
I am using my favorite lullaby
'Claude Debussy Claire De Lune'
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CvFH_6DNRCY
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